sometimes, we come to a point where we are numb towards the things we hear.
and its been weeks,i just cant find the words to say or how to react.
i would like to pretend that i dont know anything; act stupid.

i need a change, and im moving onto another blog.
til i get there, this blog is still alive, but dead at the same time.

how do you mend

you broke my heart. you have no idea how much im still hurting.
im still masking my emotions.

i thought ive gotten over it already,but everytime the thoughts flash back.
i feel my body turn cold and my tears swell.at times, i tell myself its all
a big joke, so i can laugh about it.but i know its so stupid.


God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
Courage to change the things i can, and Wisdom to know the difference.



i thank god i have the best friends.
i love you girls, you know who you are.
thank you for what you girls did.

DONKEY YEARS AND YEARS OF DONKEYS

i miss you girls.

SNIFF BOREDOM

THIS IS GRACE. GRACE IS NICE. VEH NAAS!


boredom got the better of us. so we started snappin pictures.

i can already smell the weekend. can you?

BLIND

Im only pretty sure that I cant take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder is there anything
Im going to miss
I wonder how its going to be
When you dont know me
Hows it going to be
When youre sure Im not there
Hows it going to be
When theres no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I dont care
Hows it going to be
Hows it going to be
Where we used to laugh
Theres a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I cant ignore
Like the hammock by the
Doorway we spent time in swings empty
Dont see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder hows it going to be
When it goes down
Hows it going to be
When youre not around
Hows it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I dont care
Hows it going to be
And hows it going to be
When you dont know me anymore
And hows it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion oblivion
Hows it going to be
When you dont know me anymore
Hows it going to be
Hows it going to be
Hows it going to be

THIRD EYE BLIND

ive decided to quit talking to both of you.
for as long as it takes.

BE NICE

im at work now.
slept over grace's last night,slept at 3am after
trying kose's black mask, and you can feel like you're tearing your face out when ure peeling that darn mask off! its good of course,really removes your white/black heads.

anyway,im so sleepy right now,you know how its like after lunch.
so i decided to change my desktop wallpaper at work.

xoxo.

surprised? haha. YES.

the boyfriend learnt something new during the weekend and made full use of it during his really FREE time at home. he decided to surprise me.and indeed, he did.

the pictures of us were uploaded by him!

im at work now pops, and i am pleasantly surprised!

im gonna have early lunch today.yay!

time to get back to work now.

XOXO.

love you pops!

Surprise Surprise Surprise!

what youve missed...

i was stocking up items at MAKISQUAREPATCH this weekend,and they had these portraits hung up this week.SURPRISE!!! tulika! do you see yourself here!
these were done at MAAD by an artist whose name i cant recall now. go have a look at them at emerald hill.

then we went over to his granny's place for dinner.the little monster was there,he was fiddling with my cammie and hes really inspired to be a photographer when he grows up! he learnt how to use the self-timer,sepia/black&white mode,adjust the flash,red-eye all within half an hour.hes barely 7. and i think he's like an ivan junior, dont u think? lol.

TWENTY ONE CANDLES.ONE VERY HAPPY GIRL.

this isnt regina spektor,but someone whom im sure is greatly inspired by her.
ChemoLimo is one of my favourite tracks in "MaryAnne and the grave diggers" album.a gift for my twentiyfirst from hardy.THANK YOU AGAIN!

she's an awesome songwriter with amazing vocals.

well,celebrated charmaine's 21st during the weekend.here are some photos!









im soooo tired.sometimes i feel work has stripped me off my life!but im still contented that ive got my popi! and my BLOODCELLS. which reminds me: I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE READING THIS.LETS MEET UP AGAIN BEFORE OUR DEAR BOYS ENTER EH-HEM MENHOOD.

!!!!!

goodnight loves.goodbye weekend.

lets clasp our hands and close our eyes

i know that my blog has been somewhat stagnant for far too long.i guess its like that when you start working.ive been on full-time since the beginning of this month; its madhouse sometimes.but it gets paid off. like recently, after working on the yellow ribbon project,i was given a token of appreciation from them; a compilation cd by the ex-offenders/ex-mates (however you wanna put it).


im actually at work right now,but i just thought its been far too long.and i dont want my blog to be rusting away.haha.

photomania tonight.

xoxo.

Every you and every me.

im at work now(and slurping on tau huey), and i shouldnt be blogging.
BUT. my blog is deprived of updates!

tonight Makisquarepatch is having a little party and if you're free do pop by!
7.30pm onwards; 111 Emerald Hill. Check out my links for more info about Makisquarepatch!

i have tonnes of pictures to share, guess i will upload all that tonight, or this weekend. because the minute i step home, all i want is to climb to my bed. and when i wake, i have to rush for work. so i dont really have much free time on weekdays.

well,i better get back to work.

update tonight.

love.

a little tweak

i think its been about 2 weeks since ive seen my dashboard. ive been really busy. jueru by trudy can now be found at Makisquarepatch at 111 Emerald Hill! (:

im really excited by the way things are going now.how everything seems to be falling into palce. ive decided that im not gng to take my degree now and work full time. ironically i like my job, tho it gets really hectic.

im going to revamp Jueru and Psychedelique again! so stay tuuuuuuuuned! (:

xoxo.

click.SAVE.path.SAVE.pdf.SAVE.send.SAVE

ive got to make this a real quick entry.in case some of u guys dont know yet,im on intern at a design house somewhere near outram,at eng hoon st to be exact.and im there from 10 to 7 (sometimes later). i left the office only at 10.15 last night. it was so messy,before i could send a completed design to my client,i found out later that my font wasnt linked..blahblah,my dear classmates would know what i mean right? :/
so everything was delayed and like it wasnt bad enough,the internet at the office was lagging so bad,my email couldnt go through.i felt really uncomfortable because some of my colleagues were waiting for my work to be done before we leave together,which made me a complete wreck while amending my work!everything seems to go wrong when ure like abit kan chiong isnt it?so,we finally left the office and had dinner+supper nearby.it was a really long day,and i thought about how far i had to back home from my bus stop,my legs went weak.and my lower back was aching like crap later in the day at work.omg.im complaining so much.okay.i'll shut up.

well.its the 10th of july.which also means its 3 days to my birthday!but i really dont know how to celebrate it or what to expect. its my 21st, and im little excited and looking forward to taking the next big step to officially being an adult.lol.sweet sixteen.the eighteenth.and finally the big two-o.ah wells.we'll see.

alright,ive gotta get ready for work now.i love you all! ciao!

xoxo.

PS: its tuesday! Gelare's half-priced waffles!!!! go stuff yourselfs!

im pleasantly surprised by the number of people reading my blog and when i received responses regarding my rather emotional post.i wanna thank you guys again (: things just happen at the wrong time,and i just want to forget about it and flip a new page.im too easy going,but that doesnt mean i dont analyse you personally in my own thoughts first.i have learnt so much from our mistakes which holds our relationship tighter.sometimes you turn me into a complete emotional wreck,but we just have to learn and understand one another better dont we? i love you for who you are,now and forever.

im calling the design company tommorrow.i have to stop procrastinating.wish me luck.

these are just a FEW from the hundreds of pictures we took last night at Lasalle's moving out party at Goodman.it was a crazy crazy night; theres so much to talk about and more pictures to post up,but i had a really long day and im really poofed; make do with these!ive got videos of the live music,you can check out more pictures at Hardy's webbie (refer to my links)

more pictures tmr!goodnight!

featuring PLAIN SUNSET
TOO
i think you know who she already is by now (:
Firdaus!
also featuring ALLURA
and GINETTE (ASTREAL)